it has been a while since i posted something in this blog.
many things had happened and i intended to write them all in this blog. but as usual, laziness, busy-ness and everything else went in the way.
i just want to share my experience of being an ASD patient. in which it means i have a hole in the upper chamber of my heart since i was born. and here i am, at the age of 23 years old, i've just realize the effect of the hole on me.
it all started when i was in MARJON, United Kingdom. i realized something was wrong with me. i got this weird 'angin'. it went non-stop. i will continue to burp and burp and burp. i thought it was a case of 'angin'. maybe i ate something minty or what not. i drank/ate all kind of remedies to get rid of the 'angin'. my housemate even said it may happened because i drank tea all the time. so i only drank milo from that very day.
till one day, i can feel my heart skips a beat. i turn pale. i was scared. i didn't even tell my housemates. a few weeks later, it happened again. it was when i was helping my friend moving boxes from her house, then erkkk!! i can feel my heart stretched and skipped a beat again. i immediately ran back to my house. calmed myself down. and hope it wasn't serious and prayed hard it won't happen again. i was wrong.... it did happened again.. it was when i was about to go to a trip to Scotland. it really happened outside of my house. and i still didn't want to tell my friends. i was scared and i really don't want to ruin the trip. i wore a thick scarf around my neck and covered my chest. i thought it was because of the cold weather that i became like that. and thankfully, it only happened at the beginning of the trip.
since all of the incidents happened, i realized it affected my chest. i felt sore around the left area of my chest. i put ointment on it, hoping the sore will go away. however, i kinda knew the sore is coming from my heart. i was scared to admit it and get a check up. and i still kept it a secret from my friends and family. i really dont want to worry them.
to be continued......
